OUR FIRST ANNIVERSARY

aloha !nice to be back writing again tonight. while in a bad mood, and trouble sleeping. i'm gonna do some Q&A by myself.

Q : HAPPY FIRST ANNIVERSARY !
A : thank you, but we're not official yet. it is tomorrow, but once again thank you.

Q : how do you feel right now ??it is about hmm couple hours to go !
A : i'm not excited i'm exhausted.

Q : something went wrong. WHAT HAPPENED ?
A : well, i was hoping to spent the day till 0.00 sharp. but my boyfriend are sick. i want him to stay at house and go to sleep earlier but he spend this night with his friends. okay i'm disappointed. sad. and feel so lonely.

Q : hmmm okay then. anything else ??
A : i have a couples of wish for him.

Q : just say it
A : well, it have been really tough relationship, i hope we were getting better. better person in better relationship. and i want him to know that i love him so much, yet i don't hope too much on him. after this day.

GEEZZZ

why can't i spend the night with him ?. it feels very lonesome.

and i also feel like i'm being very far with my pic.

WHO ELSE WANT TO STAY WITH ME ??. I KNOW THE ANSWER SHOULD BE GOD.

i feel tired sometimes. and one day, it just blow to tears. that's how it works.

TEARS WASHED AWAY OUR TIRESOME.

anyway, behind my tears i still have to grateful. so thanks for today, we had met. and i'm disappointed. thank you. i love you.

adios !

HAL YANG TAK TERDUGA

LIFE 

kita gk bakal bisa tau tentang apa yang akan terjadi di masa depan

you can't see the future

 dan kita gak bakal bisa menghindar dari apa yang ada di depan mata kita

sometimes people make a mistake

and regret

and sometimes don't

people is diffrent

gw kenal berbagai macam orang, dan dari sana gw kenal apa arti pertemanan

tapi kadang ada satu titik dimana kita gk bisa tahan

tentang apa yang ada di dalam diri orang  lain itu

kadang kita gk bisa cuma bergantung sam satu orang

karna it's really impossible

i can't understand about people

sometimes they changed

but some of them not

di saat gw ketemu orang yang slalu berubah-ubah itu , gw capek , karna gw harus slalu mengalah

moodnya gampang ilang lah, tiba" bete lah, kadang nyolot lah, tapi dy jga punya sisi baik di dalam dirinya and we know it

tapiiiiiii

di saat gw berada di kondisi dimana gw capek banget ngehadepin seseorang itu

gw pasti bakal menjauh

itu sifat terburuk gw

"gk pernah mw menyakiti orang yang secara tidak sengaja menyakiti gw"

tanpa memberi tahu mereka

sebenernya gw sadar sifat gw itu

tapi gw jga capek untuk selalu mengalah dan memberi tahu dy terus menerus dimana kesalahan dy

temen emang harusnya slalu ada di suka dan duka

tapi klo cuma satu orang doang yang mentafsirkan kalimat itu

namanya bunuh diri

gw bukan ngajarin klo lo gk betah sama satu orang trus orang itu lo tinggalin gitu aja

IT IS NOT MY POINT

inti yang mau gw kasih tau disini

" gak semuanya dy ciptain sama sama Tuhan, semua orang berbeda dan punya kepribadian masing - masing, dan perbedaan itulah yang membuat gk semua orang itu harus cocok. Kadang kutub utara gk bakal bisa kita satuin sama kutub utara, kadang matahari gk bakal bisa sampingan sama bulan. Temen sih semuanya jadi temen, tetapi sahabat its more than a friend, bertemen sama siapa aja, tapi sahabat itu adalah orang terdekat yang tau lo luar dalam dan pengertian sama lo, dan mengerti tentang diri lo, dan slalu ada di suka dan duka dan juga lo mengerti dia luar dalam dan lo pengertian sama dy, dan lo jga mngerti tentang dy, dan kita slalu bersama dalam suka dan duka"

itu yang dinamakan sahabat.

dan kadang lo harus melewati fase - fase yang sulit buat menemukan "your best budies"

BACK :)

its realllyyyy realllyyyy a long time

udah lama banget gk ngepost

dan blog ini sudah terbengkalai

dan sekarang gw mw membuat blog ini hidup lagi hahahahaa

deborahhhhh come on join , and lets make a kick hahaha

SORI BORI DORI

post ini gw dedikasiin buat sahabat terbaik gw :)
DEBORA , gw merasa guilty banget
karna gw gk bisa meluangkan waktu sama dy, sori banget sayang
dan gw harap lo bisa mengerti :)
karna gw sekarang ud di jogja gw bakal pake aku kamu walau susah hahaah
jadi deb, kamu gpp kan?
kamu baik - baik aja kan?
kamu lagi punya masalah?
kamu gk lagi sakit kan?
:)
aku ketinggalan banyak banget cerita sama lo
maav banget klo gw jd the worst bestfriend ever for you
but i still love you always and forever :)


salam tempel muaaaaachhhh

i have no idea

and this is it, i think it is the climax.

ga kerasa waktu berjalan cepet banget. 2 hari lagi natal, dan gak lama setelah itu tahun 2012. dan 2 hari lagi gue 10 bulan sama pacar. IT FEELS UNBELIEVABLE. karena pas awal gue jadian, gue gak bener-bener yakin sama dia. sampai akhirnya, hari ini.

awalnya gue cuma ngerasa bosen hari ini which was karena i got nothing to do. dan unfortunately pacar lagi ke bandung, dan may best partner in crime lagi ke Medan. gak tau ada angin apa, gue tiba-tiba merasa bosen banget terus ngerasa bosen banget abis itu bosen banget (lagi). akhirnya gue ngerasa kesel.

"WHY IS EVERYBODY SHOULD ON VACATION ?"
"WHERE IS MY BOY ?"
"WHY THERE ARE NOBODY ACCOMPANY ME ?"

SHIT, I AM FVCKING BORED.

gue mulai kesel. GILA, kemana sih ini cowo gue ??. rasanya ya mbok sama aja punya sama ga punya ??cuman bedanya tiap sabtu minggu gue ketemu dia. itu pun gak lama. I WANT YOUR TIME !
well gak tau what is exactly going on, but this lately i'm craving for a time with him. am i get sensitive ??
but tell me it was tuesday, wednesday, thursday, friday. only 3 days i have with you, and don't you realize 3 days we meet, even not equals as one day. i'm bored, dear. and i barely need some one. i do.

FVCK FVCK FVKC FCVK FKCV FUCK

im rooting at home, and no ones accompany me. FVCK (again).

"take your time and forget me but don't search me. cause i'm not the woman who can't be move." - DK, with unstoppable tears and plenty of miss.

FELIS CUMPLEANOS

Hola !buenas noches !
So while waiting my boyfriend swimming, i'm trying to write a new post with his ipad !hehe.

FELIZ CUMPLEANOS. HAPPY BIRTHDAY. SELAMAT ULANG TAHUN !
Fianlly it come to a day when your birthday hehe. I honestly was watching tv and without i realize it was twelece a.m already !

I wish you healthy. DO NOT FORGET TO EAT. Cause once again i want you to be fatter, hehe.
I wish you success on your major. DO NOT FOLLOW ME ! Congratulation that you are doing your dream major, D !
I wish lot of good things in your life, i can't write down one by one for you. But one thing you should note, I GOT PLENTY OF GREAT WISH FOR YOU.

And remember, ieven you don't celebrate your birthday with cake, baloon, and boyfriend. It is never matter, cause you can buy them !what matter is a wish, cause you never can buy them.

So done with my ipad testing, it work well. See you ont the next post. And once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DELVI, make it kickin !

SIX A.M IN THE MORNING

no cake, no parents, no bestfriend

silence and alone

my birthday

terharu denger telepon mama papa

sama terharu denger voice note debora 

glad to have both of you

thanks God to give me all of this beatiful creatures besides me